Hm… What did you mean by “You create all these abandonment things, you’re the one doing it, then you’re pissed at them.” Who is them, and how do WE create the issues if we truly feel that way? And then “What I’m putting out there [is what] I’m getting back…” I’m not getting the process there I guess. (Religion makes me anxious! I need to get me a t-shirt with that on it!)
I was talking to a brilliant lawyer wjo has been there three times now. He is addicted to being smart and being anxious. The “them” is everybody in his life. He feels and thinks and acts acts in ways that always eventually leads to people abandoning him. Doesn’t matter who it is over many decades. He is the common denominator in his formula and he always gets the same answer. There is no one else who is creating his life. He sets up senerios in an attempt to change “manipulate” people into doing what only he can do for himself. z he spends his time butt hurt and drunk because the people won’t do what they have no power to do in the first place. He says his worst fear is of being adandoned and aline yet his own secret unknown self is operating in the shadows to bring about that which he fears the most. And it is for his good not harm. His thinking ego is too stupid and such a control freak that he is in effect killing it so that he can be free.
Makes me wonder if that’s a habit I fall into… Though my addiction is a LITTLE less lethal. At least for now.
It is a habit everyone has. Some are more acceptable than others. His may end up being better for him than for someone who nevet really hurts bad enough to finally get tired of the games they fake themselves out with. He may have a chance to be akive befire he dies. I think most of us put it off till the heart stops to finally know we are more than our thinking and physical sensation. But everyone will eventually know it to be so.
Hm… What did you mean by “You create all these abandonment things, you’re the one doing it, then you’re pissed at them.” Who is them, and how do WE create the issues if we truly feel that way? And then “What I’m putting out there [is what] I’m getting back…” I’m not getting the process there I guess. (Religion makes me anxious! I need to get me a t-shirt with that on it!)
I was talking to a brilliant lawyer wjo has been there three times now. He is addicted to being smart and being anxious. The “them” is everybody in his life. He feels and thinks and acts acts in ways that always eventually leads to people abandoning him. Doesn’t matter who it is over many decades. He is the common denominator in his formula and he always gets the same answer. There is no one else who is creating his life. He sets up senerios in an attempt to change “manipulate” people into doing what only he can do for himself. z he spends his time butt hurt and drunk because the people won’t do what they have no power to do in the first place. He says his worst fear is of being adandoned and aline yet his own secret unknown self is operating in the shadows to bring about that which he fears the most. And it is for his good not harm. His thinking ego is too stupid and such a control freak that he is in effect killing it so that he can be free.
Makes me wonder if that’s a habit I fall into… Though my addiction is a LITTLE less lethal. At least for now.
It is a habit everyone has. Some are more acceptable than others. His may end up being better for him than for someone who nevet really hurts bad enough to finally get tired of the games they fake themselves out with. He may have a chance to be akive befire he dies. I think most of us put it off till the heart stops to finally know we are more than our thinking and physical sensation. But everyone will eventually know it to be so.