There are times when my pathway is hidden. When the next step seems to lead off a cliff in any direction. I find at such times that there is an anxious impulse that will arise. I will tend to consider things in dialectical categories; yes – no, good – bad, right – wrong, etc. There are many times when reason is appropriate and can be a reliable guide. But, there have been others when the choices break down and there is no good choice or even bad choice. I think maybe the hardest thing to do sometimes is nothing. The impulse to move, to act, to make a choice can become quite strong. But how does one choose? The wise folks of old have left some clues. Be still . . . Don’t be anxious about tomorrow . . . Go out not knowing . . . wait and your strength will be renewed . . . the farmer plants the seed but the Creator makes it grow . . . death before rebirth . . . the Creator will complete what was begun in you. One of my mentors taught me a long time ago that if I felt like I must do something then run like hell. There is less desperation now than when I wrote what follows. There is a quietness and an awareness of the impulse to jump. So for now I sit in the ferment of me content to watch what might bubble up. Be Groovy!
Ferment
In the dark
Conversion
From one to another
Sweetness transformed
Energy released expands
Bubbles in the darkness
Changing, rearranging
Separate, watching, or not
It continues
Out of my hands
The fruits have been pressed
Latent potentials emerge
In keeping with the fruit’s nature
Patience, quiet Self
Watch the bubbles but refrain
The ferment requires no assistance
Bubbles in the dark
Reveal the Soul of the grape
Yes, the hardest thing to do tonight is nothing. I NEED to be doing something. For my sister who is losing her husband to cancer, and for my friend who just needs . . . I don’t know what. I love them both.
They love you.
<3
“Bubbles in the dark, reveal the Soul of the grape” does this mean we are in the dark because of the mystery?
I was thinking that many times we don’t know ourselves. The fermentation transforms and reveals who we are
I understand better now. I am in the fermenting phase and waiting still.
I think the trick is trusting the process or god or your own soul in the midst of the anxiety. The idea that something is wrong with us is what is wrong with us.:)
Yes I believe I have discovered that. I wasn’t truly depressed, more the idea that I believed I was depressed. Thank you for your thoughtful comments; it has helped me climb out of the darkness 🙂
Sounds like a good title for your next piece. Climbing out
Good idea 🙂
I have found a secret door, beyond which are old tapes are hidden. It is quite like excavating. I pick up one tape. It says “Ferment.” And I read the scroll which I’ve found in a crevice behind it. I think about all of this happening in the dark, beneath the surface. I understand that many things filter in as if by osmosis, while I am sleeping, or asleep, in that waking sleep, where I am only aware of the surface, even as I sense a happening within. Fermenting. I shall hope to watch for it, wait for it, listen for it. I may catch a glimpse in a moment of clarity.
I am thinking now that I don’t need a new path. It is a new me I await.
Well however you are, you are loved… <3
This is one of my favorites. Just love picturing it all working inside ME as well as with the grapes.
I think I would do this just to get your feedback. I am glad for it.
Not surprisingly, I feel very connected to this one.
Well, I hope you two make beautiful “harmony” together! LOL
Oh… Looks like I’m going to be making a bookmark for my Bible. Felt like a conversation with my soul. How beautiful to know how it all works inside a wine skin (and me). Hopeful. Master Vintner: God and P’sG.
I needed the reminder. Its what bubbled up this morning waiting on this boy to wake up so we can write some music. 🙂 Showing him how to cook lima beans and ham in a crock pot so he won’t starve to death here at college. When he wakes up. It will create a different kind of music.