Day Thirteen: Serially Found
I watched the weather of me through the day to see if perhaps there was something there
I noticed that it changed, unbidden as though another turned its dials
Sometimes the taste of that place between green and violet was broken by mountains of stark white cotton stretching from horizon to horizon
It called to something in me which wanted to be in that place of awe and wonder, but it passed over
At other moments my sky was filled with shades of gray and black ominous and threatening, fields of energy, alert to danger
The impulse to cover, to hide was strong but I remained still and it passed along with the rest
All I found there was that the weather of me shifts its shape to suite the situation
There was nothing profound there, nothing to hold on to, it just comes and goes as it wills
I sought meaning in the deeper things to see if there was some nugget, some treasure there for me
I noticed the Sage of me arise from the depths, ready to pronounce profundity
He sat on his throne, voice lowly intoned, gentle condescending words doled out to the yielding seekers needing a light, a way, a Wizard
And then another, a chocolate haired little boy, with dark brown eyes and freckles dotting his nose and cheekbones
He sought to woo with innocence and pouty lips, seeking attention, protection, love, crooked smile, shaggy hair, smelling of sunshine and romance
Then in the midst of my looking I heard Him laugh. The Jester, my tenuous but always faithful friend
He reminded me that what I was seeking would not be found in the costumes my ego wears
The profound can be another distraction and a game, as too the dance of affection What I sought was not there
Then, I watched the watcher, paying attention to my paying attention
Remembering again, that I know very little and how easily distracted I can be
Caught up in a self that is fleeting like the weather, changed by the currents on the wind around me
Hidden behind masks that can at times be mistaken for me, leaving me alone but entertained or distracted
I laughed along with the Jester. He always tells me the truth, especially when I take myself too seriously, or not seriously enough
Like trying to scratch an itch in a mirror, I sought but did not find, for what I wanted could not be found there
A wonderful playground of experience and love and learning and hope and grief, but playground it is, for it will not last
In seeking I found. I found that there is really no need to seek that which is not lost.
Come home boy it is time for rest.
Whenever I visit your blog I prefer lyrics / poetry but this time I try this your writing style is very nice. I love how you narrated in audio. Excellent.
That is a great compliment from a talented artist like yourself. Every thing I write I hear it and am not satisfied if I don’t record it. Thank you for being here and thank you for taking the time to leave such a gracious comment.
Thank you. I have shared your post in my fb page hope you would not mind it.
That is an honor!
Gracious Lord when I was reading i felt like it was about my inner self being referred to.It’s,funny that i have read it thrice :-). You are a great writer
I am so pleased that you stop by here and even more so that you enjoyed your stay. 🙂
You ladies are much smarter than I. I think in the end we seek just cause its fun.
Fim has some good questions there, boyo. “I sought meaning in the deeper things to see if there was some nugget, some treasure there for me…” I couldn’t help wondering when I read that, is there ALWAYS a nugget or treasure when we look deeper? Or are we just seeking for the sake of seeking? I ask because of the song “Clim Every Mountain” from the movie.
I would say this poem has pulled you closer to the reality of the last few days than other things that came before. Pretty soon your writing will be integrated, I think.
Maybe
A wonderful piece, which I wanted to put in at the beginning. And, did you paint that picture at the top?
No I’m not that talented
“In seeking I found. I found that there is really no need to seek that which is not lost.” *smiling*
Thought: would you not have needed to seek to find what you found, which was that it is not lost?
Other thought: Do we perhaps seek, not for seeking’s sake, but for the sweet wine of rediscovery?
And another thought: Is our seeking, perhaps, for the parts of us which have not yet caught up with the seeker?
Did you just write this yesterday?
Today. I haven’t really edited it. Wanted to get it done before a new prompt. I stopped long enough to write it then hit the road. Back about the grown up stuff.
“back about the grown up stuff”?
Work
Very interesting twists of words..! Good blog
Matches my mind. 🙂 thank you
You’re welcome. 🙂
I loved it…but even more I love the way you write, so beautiful and inspiring:)
Beautiful poetry! Keep speaking to my heart!
I am glad it did. I thought to reread it this evening before I recorded it. If you saw anything glaring that needs an edit please let me know. And thank you so much for being here
This line : All I found there was that the weather of me shifts its shape to suite the situation
There was nothing profound there, nothing to hold on to, it just comes and goes as it wills
grabbed my heart from my chest . You are a beautiful writer.
You made me grin. I was not sure about that one. I rarely am when I publish them. I will look at it again after while. But what I do know about you from your comment is that you have sensitivity and an intuition about things many never will. Not because of what I wrote or how I wrote it. Has little to do with my attempt at writing. It has more to do with your own deep inner wisdom and insight that saw through my scratching to some truth you already knew for yourself. Trust Her. She already knows and she is you. Thank you for playing
Wow! You just made my entire day . Thank you so much . And no problem, I can’t wait to continue reading.
I am glad you came by.